As I write this I'm on a small plane taking me from the island of Tanna to Port Vila, a 35min. flight.
The tears are spilling and I'm having a hard time stopping them.
I am physically tired and emotionally numb.
We had both a difficult week with many many obstacles as well as an exciting week of fun and happy times, the kind of times that make for lasting memories.
I am well aware of the fact that our battle on this earth is not against flesh and blood, and I know that the enemy wants to thwart the work of God especially with the work my son is doing, but our God is the one true and almighty God, full of power and might, grace and mercy. And I saw this week His hand and care on each obstacle we faced, His hand and care on my son and his family, His hand and care on Sage and me.
I struggle with wanting to say, "Why God do things have to be so hard when it's so hard in this place already."
But I know that it is the obstacles that God uses in our lives to make us holy and dependent on Him.
There were times this week that I wanted to take my son and his family home with me:)
I know that is silly, and not God's will, so instead I left them this morning with lots of hugs, promises to see one another in a year, and much thankfulness for this time we have had together.
We leave for Fiji and USA tomorrow afternoon.
Monday, June 15, 2009
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I have never met you but in a sense I know you well. I know your tears and fears, frustrations, joys and prayers. I also know that like you I want so much for my family to come and like you I am so proud that they don't.
I know it will be hard to adjust back to our culture. I wonder honestly if I ever will. Each day things remind me of Haiti. I see mangos in the store and want to cry.I want to tell people what I've seen but know they can't understand.Each day I look forward to my trip back.
Praying for a gentle re-entry for you!
My journey as a parent of a missionary has just begun but God has brought me to your blog. thank you. i am praying for you tonight!!
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